Sorry

Sorry

By: Vash-chan




I'm sorry

I'm sorry for everything in my life
From the day I was born till a day like today
At an early stage I could see my life turn out this way - sad, lonely...
The list goes on

I'm sorry for being brought up as a different person
Somebody who does not see things black and white
That's just the way I am
I can be ashamed of myself sometimes

Everyone wants me to be like them
They don't understand my individuality
They want me to drink a lot like they do
They want me to drive cars
They want me to go to parties
They think I am clever
They think I will obey them
They think I am just like everyone in my community
But I say HELL NO

I want to be different but still realistic
I'm sorry if you don't like that
I just want to be me
If there is a me that exists
People judge me because I'm different
They don't wish to hear me say sorry to them

Family are disappointed in me
What can I say to them other than sorry?
I'm sorry for being born as this loser who isn't a fairy

They can't understand how it feels to be different
All I can say is sorry...for not being a better person
Sorry is the only word I can express
It is what lies beneath me
It is all I ever say

I can't fit in because of my difference inside and out
Many only care about me fitting in and having a future by their rules
But I have no future, do I?

Then again, I may have no life at all
I'm sorry. This is all I can say
I'm sorry for ruining things...or even everything